Increased awareness is allowing me to detect the intensity of resistance and trauma that comes with such rapid change…and at the very same time, experience the calm of Acceptance and Surrender. I am still riding the wheel of transformation, but I am riding it faster, smoother and easier. It’s less like a roller-coaster and more like the Log Flume!
That’s not to say I don’t throw my toys out of the cot now and then. In fact, I throw them a whole lot sooner!!! In very raw terms, for me, this means letting the part of me that feels sorry for myself be acknowledged. A part that, over the years, has had a hell of a time being seen. It has quite literally had to shout to be heard over and above the unrelentingly positive thinking, super wise, uber mature, mumbo-jumbo speaking aspect of me constantly striving for higher ground!
Now don’t get me wrong, I LOVE that part of me. But seriously, the potential pressure build up between “super positive me” and “poor me” is immense. And quite frankly, I’ve had enough!
So we’ve had a chat – these seemingly opposite aspects – and we’ve agreed we’re on the same team. We’ve acknowledged that the existence of one enables the other to be seen more clearly. And, most excitingly of all, we’re resting in the knowledge and experience that the MERGE of the two is beyond special. It offers so much MORE than either could envisage alone. It is MAGIC. It is INTERNAL ALCHEMY. It is a vital step in the process of EMBODIMENT.
MERGE is such an important concept right now. And within this context I am having fun playing with the word by considering ‘Little Ms Positive’ as the ME section and ‘Poor Me’ as the GE section (fitting since it sounds close to grrrrrrrr). Which leaves the R in the middle – the place of UNION. The place where ME and GE become one - what I am calling WE ARE. Do you get it? Me-R-Ge.
It’s a bit of fun to remind me a lighter approach is always possible. And that there is a short-cut to the harmonious and expansive space from where my many parts can collaborate and enjoy this thing called LIFE.
So I, for one, am no longer waiting for GRACE and EASE to arrive as an absence of transformation - but rather as an ever changing and more enjoyable approach to transformation, and subsequent embodiment.
I’m taking the short-cut – even if it means spitting the dummy! I am OK if it gets a bit messy. I am done being afraid of my fragility…OR my power for that matter!
I am inviting my Higher Self and my Lower Self to the table as equal players. I am embracing the Child and the Goddess. I am calling in Left and Right, Upper and Lower, Masculine and Feminine, Past and Future, Innocent and Wise etc etc.
I am MERGE-ing. I am returning to WHOLENESS. And I am DELIGHTED to witness so many doing the same!
- May EXPERIENCE remind you that transformation is always worth it.
- May WISDOM remind you that no matter how you are feeling, it will pass.
- May FREEDOM remind you that is totally OK to feel WHATEVER you are feeling.
- And may GRACE and EASE be your norm.
Masses of Love Dear Soul Family!
These are unprecedented times and no matter where
you are at in your journey, I know you are BEYOND SPECIAL and I SALUTE YOU!!!